Well, I didn't have a great day yesterday. I felt assaulted by bad thoughts and feelings. I started thinking negatively and boy, can that bring you down quick. Having the stillbirth as my most recent result of a pregnancy can lead me down paths I don't want to tread. I really don't. I feel better this morning though and I am praying for continued strength and healing for my heart and mind. I honestly just want to enjoy the gift of being pregnant and and take each day as a new blessing. It also helps that I have friends and family praying for me!
On another note- Rylie, Aidan and I started up our Gaelic lessons yesterday. Aidan is like a sponge. She absorbs a foreign language so easily! Because of my Irish ancestry (my Dad is half Irish half German) Rylie has always loved Irish history, language and lore. We will be traveling to Ireland in 2012 (I know it's a long way off!) and it will be delightful to be able to speak Irish. So when you see weird words here, it's just me practicing my Irish. Slán leat(slawn lath)! Goodbye!
29 August 2007
Have you ever awoken to your mind singing over and over a song that you haven't heard in a while? I do that on occasion and this mornings song seemed rather special. I awoke singing the Newsboys song "Million Pieces". It was a comfort to me- as if God had put that song in my mind for me today as a reminder of casting my cares to him. Even the big things become small and insignificant when I let them fall into the Lords hands. My belly on the other hand is not small these days. Here I am at 11 weeks and looking like I'm at least 4 months. Only 29 weeks to go!
28 August 2007
Ok- This raiding of the fridge every hour is getting to me. I eat and within an hour I am starving. And I don't mean I am just a little hungry- I am ravenous! I guess it is all in Gods perfect plan- start out early with the increase in grocery bills and when the little ones arrive the higher cost of everything won't be such a shock, right?? Thats what I keep telling myself anyway...
Here they are! Baby A and Baby B. I can't wait to find out the sex. Ian is hoping for identical twin boys- Rylie and Aidan would like at least one to be a girl. And me too. Altho as any mom will say- you just want to have healthy babies and a healthy pregnancy. And thats true!
I am excited about school this year. As the kids have gotten older I have decided it has become necessary to schedule out the things I want to get done. I am not a schedule kind of person either. But, I have come to the realization that if I want to make sure something gets done I need to write it down in order to check it off. It also keeps the complaints down from the kidlets as they know what I expect in advance! I am certainly hoping to get great things done this semester as next semester for me will most likely be shot. Being due in March means I am going to be huge by Christmas and will be too busy with babies to get into "school" mode once they arrive. But thats ok. What a better learning experience than being able to be at home with your family and experience the miracles and joys that arrive in those tiny little packages! I am 11 weeks today!
27 August 2007
I am finally blogging... Mostly out of a necessity to keep my random thoughts in a somewhat attractive order. I am venturing into my 7th year of homeschooling. I have four kids- Rylie (12 in a few days), Ian-9, Aidan-6 and Kyle Ann (born 3/3/07) who is already enjoying eternity with Jesus. I do miss her very much though. I currently have twins on the way- due date is March but I doubt I will hit that month pregnant. And my whole family could not be more excited!!! It is truly a special gift and I want to enjoy the pregnancy without fear. I am due one year to the month of our daughters still birth..... What a year this has been! Join me as I chronicle this pregnancy and homeschooling.... it should be quite a ride!